Still Here

Alright, so I’m back. I’ve actually written quite a few entries but I never posted them- I’m not entirely sure why. They were all about my struggles with losing my dachshund and to be honest, I still can’t talk about it without crying and I just didn’t feel like doing this anymore. I’m getting over … Continue reading Still Here

More Loss

I don’t even know what to say anymore. I just know that my recent attempts to stay positive have failed miserably. I was trying so hard to stay positive during this challenging time in my life while also staying focused on learning programming.  It’s been quite difficult because my husband thinks that I have my … Continue reading More Loss

Positive Thoughts

Well it has been quite a while since I’ve written in this blog. With the recent news of losing my job, I have increased my efforts to expand my career options. I’m unfortunately in a pretty rural area and finding a lab tech position will be challenging unless I want to drive an hour one … Continue reading Positive Thoughts

Testing The Waters

I don’t know if I can do this, it took exactly one week for him to get angry. He’s playing on my emotions again. He’s frustrated with my dogs, he’s tired, he has a headache. And apparently the worst thing is that his wife is cold and seemingly stuck up now. I guess every time he … Continue reading Testing The Waters


I sort of just want to spend some time talking about my walk with God this past year. I feel like I spend a lot of time on here complaining about my situation and I don’t really spend a whole lot of time talking about how He’s blessed me. I think I just had this … Continue reading Change

The Next Step

There is a very good chance that I might make a very huge mistake this weekend, good intro, right? I’m so confused by my husband. I expected him to say he was going to change everything but not actually do it. He did change everything though. He found a group of guys to hang out. … Continue reading The Next Step

The Struggle

You know what I think is stupid, marriage. This whole idea that you should emotionally bind yourself to someone is awful. We feel safe in marriage, we feel like we finally have some one that understands, that will love you and take care of you. So we give ourselves completely to another person and let … Continue reading The Struggle

Mood Swings

Man, I feel like I am going through some weird hormonal crap right now. I don’t think I usually have what you would call mood swings or anything. I’m usually pretty calm and even keeled. I think I still am on the outside though for the most part, or so people say. I’ve been told … Continue reading Mood Swings

Bad Days

Look at me, already writing on here. Mainly I’m writing because I’m having a bit of a bad day again. I usually have ok days where I can focus on other things and stuff but I’ve been at my moms for a week now due to work schedules. It’s nice because I have a little … Continue reading Bad Days


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