Testing The Waters

I don’t know if I can do this, it took exactly one week for him to get angry. He’s playing on my emotions again. He’s frustrated with my dogs, he’s tired, he has a headache. And apparently the worst thing is that his wife is cold and seemingly stuck up now. I guess every time he … Continue reading Testing The Waters


I sort of just want to spend some time talking about my walk with God this past year. I feel like I spend a lot of time on here complaining about my situation and I don’t really spend a whole lot of time talking about how He’s blessed me. I think I just had this … Continue reading Change

The Next Step

There is a very good chance that I might make a very huge mistake this weekend, good intro, right? I’m so confused by my husband. I expected him to say he was going to change everything but not actually do it. He did change everything though. He found a group of guys to hang out. … Continue reading The Next Step

The Struggle

You know what I think is stupid, marriage. This whole idea that you should emotionally bind yourself to someone is awful. We feel safe in marriage, we feel like we finally have some one that understands, that will love you and take care of you. So we give ourselves completely to another person and let … Continue reading The Struggle

Mood Swings

Man, I feel like I am going through some weird hormonal crap right now. I don’t think I usually have what you would call mood swings or anything. I’m usually pretty calm and even keeled. I think I still am on the outside though for the most part, or so people say. I’ve been told … Continue reading Mood Swings

Bad Days

Look at me, already writing on here. Mainly I’m writing because I’m having a bit of a bad day again. I usually have ok days where I can focus on other things and stuff but I’ve been at my moms for a week now due to work schedules. It’s nice because I have a little … Continue reading Bad Days

Hope For a New Day

Wow, I feel like it’s been a long time since I have written in this blog. I keep telling myself that I need to sit down and write but I never end up doing it. It has been pretty busy though, I feel like I haven’t had much time to relax lately. The week has … Continue reading Hope For a New Day

The Wait

So I’m a few weeks away I think from the option to divorce legally now. Waiting is not good though because forgive and forget is a great strength of mine. I can feel the negativity finally starting to die down a little bit and the thought of going home is annoyingly easy to contemplate. All … Continue reading The Wait

I’m Tired of This

I probably shouldn’t be writing this today because I feel like crap and NO it’s not COVID. I’m just really worn out and I don’t really know what to write anymore. I am, however, doing this to myself partly. I started the whole30 diet with my brother and sister in law 3 days ago and … Continue reading I’m Tired of This


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